Wednesday, June 30, 2010

Why I Can't Sleep!

This is crazy, I must be losing my mind.

It is 4:30 in the morning and my little man is asleep, oh so peacefully in his crib. I mean this is the best he has slept in a long time! For one thing, he doesn't feel too good. I kept him from a late nap, so that helped, so I SHOULD BE SLEEPING!

I have another little boy keeping me awake!
I might lose some of you because of this, so I'm sorry.
I believe in other worldly beings. Right now I am praying it is an Angel.
As I am typing it just did something again...
On to my story...
And trust me, it ain't no freakin' toy story...
It started a week ago I realized. I was dreaming and I heard Blayze, I thought, whisper, "Mom!"  Then I woke and he really started crying. Hmmm I thought... Weird, what a coincidence...

Then, Sunday night the 27th I was home alone because my Hubby had to do an extra job and he took the baby to stay with his parents for the night, to give me a break.
Storms were rolling in and I get migraines.
That night I did my usual stuff and it did take me forever to go to sleep. It was raining and I had little leaks everywhere! So annoying on top of my head hurting.
So I finally get to sleep...
You know when little kids come in your room and just stare at you because they want something, but they feel bad because they don't want to wake you up?
I got that feeling...
I opened my eyes.
I thought it was Blayze! In 1 second my mind raced wondering how in the world did he safely get out of his crib, come in my room and stand face to face with me?
Then I remembered...
I was alone...
And just like that he was gone.
Oh how my chest throbbed in pain with the fear and anxiety of what had just happened.
He was 3 maybe 4? Blonde.
I don't know who he was.
He was adorable.
I wrote it off as just a dream and went back to sleep.

June 28th...

Tommy was home with me this time I would be safe. He could protect me. I could take something to knock me out I wouldn't ever know if anything was there. Right?
Went to sleep at Midnight.
It took me forever to fall asleep, even with the "knock out" medicine.
I went to bed with wet hair, but that shouldn't have mattered... I keep my little a/c on 73.
I tossed and turned, I was so hot. I couldn't get comfortable. It was just so hot in my room. But, when I touched Tommy's chest, it was ice cold...

It was 4:38am
Wow close to now...
Just scared myself again.
Funny how your heart can beat so fast, it can actually make you wake up...
I guess I fell asleep at some point, because I woke up so frightened...
Something shook the bed.
Tommy was awake too.
He said he had just itched his arm. He couldn't have itched it that hard. The bed moved. Then I looked up, over him and made him look to. But, he told me nothing was there.
Once again, there he was.
The little boy.
Only, this time, he climbed over Tommy and got in between us. When I realized what happened, poof! Just like that, gone.

June 29-30

Today, Tommy had to work.
Well he is a firefighter, so he has to work a 24hr shift.
That leaves me alone with the baby.
I didn't think about it all day.
Until, I had to go to bed.
I talked to Tommy, said my good nights and I love yous.
I wasn't tired and ended up staying up until 1:30.
This is the nutso one.
This is the one I lost Tommy on.

I know I was having a bad dream. Every time I closed my eyes before I went to sleep, all I could see was bad stuff. But, this wasn't a dream.

Anyways, I woke up because I heard someone pounding on my front door. 
I couldn't breathe.
I couldn't sit up.
 My right arm was completely numb. My right hand was stuck to my chest. My legs were stuck to the bed, my head was stuck. Everything was stuck to my bed and I couldn't breathe. It took everything I had to swing my right arm into a punch to knock out of it and sit up. And as soon as I started to sit up, I heard someone say, "Mom!". Oh, so quietly, just like before.
 I grabbed the phone and called Tommy. I didn't care that it was 3 in the morning. My chest hurt so bad with the pain of my heart racing.

I walked through the house turning my lights on.
Then had to let Tommy get sleep. I only talked to him for 5 minutes.
He hasn't ever seen anything to make him believe so he doesn't understand.
I still love him. :)
I need to figure out how to make this stop. I can't just get one hour of sleep every night. I know I am already going to have a migraine! I only have 3 1/2 hours until Tommy gets home.
I am in the living room.
On my laptop.
Watching Morning Express with Robin Meade. She is so cute!
See gotta get my mind off of it... I gotta pee! And the bathroom is back there by my bedroom!
Hell, I am even scared to go into my son's room! I had to put a freakin nightlight in there for me!
Maybe that helped him sleep better?
Who knows.
I am going to call the Ministerial Alliance today, and see who of the pastor's or priest's thinks I am least nuts...

I will tell you some more story of my past experiences later. But this is the biggest one.
In years!
Am I nuts?
I am sorry I know this is long.
It just seems the "experiences" are getting worse night by night...

I even told him, that I would play with him, just no more scaring me!
I guess that tactic didn't work...
So can someone please help me, before I lose my mind and just move out...
If I didn't use correct grammar, or if I misspelled something, please forgive me. There is no way I am proof reading this...
I am so happy the sun is coming up...
Maybe I can get at least a few hours of sleep before my hubby gets home.

Sunday, June 27, 2010

Orglamix Review and Giveaway!

When I ask my husband to take me shopping for make-up his shoulders slump, his head dips down, and he says, "OK..."
It's quite adorable, but pretty pathetic, because I know he will be miserable for several hours while I walk around in circles for hours (not joking) looking lovingly at the different make-up counters...
Now I don't have to because I have a new favorite online make-up counter!

It is a mineral make-up, that is PETA approved.
You know it has to be good now!
It is free of bismuth oxychloride, synthetic dyes, petrochemicals, and parabens.
Cheri, the creator has made over 75 different eye shadows.
There are eye shadows here for everyone! She has even made some for all of you Twilight fanatics!
There is even a special collection for the Bride-To-Be!
There is truly something here for everyone!

Foundations to match any one's skin tone.

From light to medium, medium to tan, tan to dark, and everything in between. She will even custom blend for you!

Orglamix blushes can make your cheeks glow like they were just pinched or give your whole body an all over summer bronze!

This one is Rosemary.
Orglamix blushes "offer a range of translucent, natural shades, each with a subtle pink for natural blush undertone that naturally brightens your face and accentuates your features."

This line of cosmetics is so versatile! The eye shadows can be used wet or dry depending on how dramatic you want the look! You can even use them as an eyeliner.

I was sent
Purple Basil


and the blush Pink Pepper

This is how it was sent to me! Well with the scent petals at least! MMM yum! Always lifts your spirits when you open a great smelling package doesn't it?
The products themselves are fragrance free though.
I have been so pleased with everything that I am waiting to talk to her to order my foundation and more eye shadows!
Oh did I mention the prices?
Only $4.99 for a little sifter pot of eyeshadow...
I can go on and on... I really have to stop myself and make you go look at her shop now!
You now have a chance to win 3 items from ORGLAMIX!

You must become a follower of my blog and then,
visit ORGLAMIX Etsy shop and tell me which 3 things you would like!
If both aren't done, your entry will be deleted...
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*Blog about this Giveaway and leave me the link!

Please make sure your email address is available to me if I click your name, otherwise, leave it for me.
This giveaway will end July 27th at midnight Central Time!
Thanks to everyone!

Monday, June 14, 2010

Chico Bag Review

Oh how much I love my Chico Bags!

Aren't they delicious?
 Chico Bags have seriously saved my life!
At this point in time I personally own a Vintage and a Vita Chico Bag and the Produce Stand collection.

The Vintage is an adorable brown polka dot polyester with a 97% recycled aluminum carabiner to hook onto you!
One of the most INCREDIBLE things about this bag????
It holds up to 40lbs of weight! My son weighs 22lbs and a gallon of milk weighs approximately 7lbs! They could both fit with room to spare! What a deal! Plus it is only $8.99!

I also have the purple Vita Chico Bag! It can scrunch down to 3.5" x 5" from a 19" x 15.5" bag!
It also holds 40 lbs!

I have already used the heck outta these things! I keep them right by my front door so I don't forget them!
One bag holds as much stuff as five Target bags! For me at least! Definitely impressive!
Everywhere I go people compliment me on them, and if they don't I tell them what they are and demonstrate how they work! I show them how they stuff into little pouches!
 Even my husband thought they were great!

I have one packed right now, sitting by my front door as a tornado bag as a matter of fact!
 (Big storms are brewing in Central Texas)
You can never be too ready!
 Thank you Becca, You are an amazing lady! You never cease to amazing me!
 Chico Bags are a must have accessory for every season! You can always find one to match any outfit!
Go check out their new, Produce Stand line!
Oh, did I mention they are earth friendly????

Saturday, June 12, 2010

Barley and Birch Giveaway

I love it when my little man is soft and cozy!
If he is saving the planet at the same time, that's even better!
I am so excited that my first giveaway over here is going to be for one of the cutest companies I ever seen!
Barley and Birch

I am always searching the Internet for companies that are natural, organic and just all around great for my dear Mother Earth. This one was easy to come by! It was on my good friend, Danielle's blog!
Getting Kinda Crunchy
She did a review as well!
I sadly enough cannot get graphics right now, because they are making their site bigger and better than ever! They are going to have an online parenting community called, "The Front Porch". I can't wait to see what they come up with, with that! If you want to be a blogger for that, just email them!

Kyle, a law student, decided that she wanted moms ( and dads) to have their children have the best clothes possible. So was born Barley and Birch!
This little company packs a BIG punch!
Everything is carbon neutral.
Definition of Carbon Neutral
EVERYTHING from the paper they write on, to the clothing on your children's backs is in someway great for our environment!
The children's line is 100% organic cotton!
The ink is water based!
The paper that they use (if needed) is 100% post-consumer recycled!
Everything is done in the great United States of America so they don't pollute our air with emissions by shipping everything over seas!
Tell me that isn't smart thinking!!
Oh and to top it ALL of, they donate 15% of all their profits to organizations all over the world!
Do you now know why I am in L-O-V-E with this company?

These are just a few videos about organic cotton, these people are not associated with Barley and Birch. However, maybe it will open your eyes to how much safer organic cotton is for our Earth and you!

Now an opportunity for you!
Barley and Birch is allowing me to giveaway one item of clothing to a lucky winner!

TO WIN!Please go to
download their new spring line and tell me what your favorite piece is!
Mine is the bear eating Sushi!
You must leave me your email address!
(I would love more followers as well!!!)

To get an extra entry each you may
-Follow Barley and Birch on Facebook
-Follow Barley and Birch on Twitter
-Follow me on Google Connect
-Follow me on Twitter
-Blog about this giveaway and leave me the link!

This giveaway will be up for a month, ending July 12
at midnight, central standard time!