Another Doctor Appointment

 I'm scared.

I don't want to go, but I know that I have to.

5 years ago I was diagnosed with HPV.

I don't know where it came from. I was in a monogomous relationship (or os I thought).

Then they discovered that I had dysplasia. You know the bad cells that could turn into cervical cancer? After a few more pap smears all of a sudden all of it suddenly disappeared. They bad cells the HPV, all of it!

Well how the hell does that happen?

That was five years ago.

Now I am here, in this moment having horrible pain, on top of all of the other pain I am going through. The pelvic stuff isn't like my back pain or migraines though. This could be bad.

I am scared.

I have a tendancy to kind of over react, especially when I am alone.

Well, here I am all alone.

And this pain, and the other stuff down there...

Makes me think what if?

What if it's bad enough that we can't have another baby.

I don't want Blayze to grow up without a brother or sister.

I don't want to have to put Tommy (my husband) through all the suffering of having to go through more taking care of me.

Then I think, well we can always adopt.

And if it is the big C, maybe thats why I am always in so much pain and always tired.

There is a huge upside and a really big slide going straight down to the down side.

At 3:45 I will go into the OB/GYNs office kick my heels into those stirrups, yell YEEHAW!

Hold on for dear life as she sticks those damn tools inside me takes samples with what will feel like razor blades.

I will pray to my Father above that everything is ok, and then come back here and vent to my dear blog girlfriends a little bit more!

I guess this is just one of those post on my journey that shows that Life Ain't Always Beautiful.

Maybe next time I will have one that makes me feel happy!

Elizabeth

What Makes a Woman Happy?

I started this blog so that I could write about what makes me happy. I guess it is a good thing there are so many days in a year, because I could honestly go on for days!

Then again, if I decided to write about what makes me sad, or mad, I could on for the same amount of time.

I wanted to make this blog so that I could bring together many types of woman, or men I guess if they really want to read it, so I could find out what makes them feel good about themselves.

I suppose that this is my mission statement.

Sassy, Sweet, and Chic is dedicated to finding out the many different ways a woman can make herself feel incredible! From the top of her head, to the bottom of her feet, inside out! Whether that be attaining knowledge, or learning beauty secrets and applying them. Do you feel great when you make your family smile?

I want to know, what makes your heart feel good?

So far I have covered, Barley and Birch. They are an incredible organic children's clothing line! They sell their clothes in boutique's and online stores and have a great little blog!

I know when my son, Blayze dresses so cute I feel like a million bucks! I know that I am a good mom no matter what! But, when people are always telling me that he is adorable, I mean come on! That boosts my ego just a little!

Then, I covered Orglamix. Cheri runs this fantastic little, or should I say huge- ever growing Etsy store! Make-up will be on here as much as possible, because it always makes me happy when I look beautiful! Whether it is just a little bit here or there or a full makeover. I truly am in love with it.I have a terrible obsession with make-up and dream to one day be a make-up artist. Until then I am on a mission to find makeup that I can't live without, like her! Please make sure you look her up!

So please, if you could send me some ideas for future topics! I swear that I have ADD, no offense to anyone out there, I think I really do. I have a mind that is everywhere and sometimes can't concentrate on one little thing. I have so many dreams. I still say, when I grow up I wanna be a...

And it has yet to happen, but hey I am only in my twenties... I have so much more life ahead of me!

So, here is to the future of my blog and to all of you that will join me on this wonderful adventure into the deep depths of a woman's soul.

Elizabeth

Orglamix Winner!

 I am so very thankful to all of you who entered the Orglamix giveaway!

82 entries!!!

Wow!

You girls truly are amazing!

Congratulations to

ZOE OLVER

She won 3 eyeshadows from Orglamix.etsy.com. I hope all of you will still go to Cheri's shop and check out everything she has to offer!

One more thing before I go today!

There is a terrible bill out there that is targeted towards small beauty companies. 

If you would all look over it and possibly sign it, it would help companies like Orglamix!

http://www.thepetitionsite.com/1/oppose-hr-5786-safe-cosmetics-act-of-2010

It says that the companies would be required to list ridiculous things like water on an ingrediant list. And then they would have to list what is in that water, like trace amounts of copper, or iron... and so on. If small companies had to test every single one of their products and make an ingrediant list, it would put them out of business!

So please read over it!

Thank you so much, small businesses will thank you!!!

I do!!!!

Elizabeth

Just to clarify...

 I am not saying that all of my wonderful readers do this!

I do however want to clarify my blog rules!

If you don't like them, you don't have to play along.

I however love that these companies are working with me and are giving away FREE products to you girls or boys;)!

It is your right not to write a blog and just have one there so you can follow me and enter these giveaways! I am not saying I like it, because I LOVE to read my followers blogs!

Just please...

READ MY RULES BEFORE EACH GIVEAWAY!

First and foremost you are required to follow my blog.

If are already a follower just let me know!

That is only fair don't you think?

 I am doing the giveaways...

You will also usually have to go to the manufacturer's website and then return to mine to tell me what product(s) you liked on their page.

Those are the very first rule...

If you do not do those, your comment will be deleted.

I'm sorry, this is the only time I will apologize.

It isn't fair to my other readers who followed the rules.

The other rules aren't rules really, just extra credit to win!

They will change with each giveaway, so I ask that you read my blog each time and pay attention. I might change things up on you!

Thank you!

Elizabeth

Barley and Birch Winner!!!!

 First of all, thank you to everyone who entered my very first giveaway with Barley and Birch and making it what it was! I never expected it to turn out the way it did!

I hope you all come back and enter my other giveaways!

Hint Hint!!!

Now to announce my winner!

Zoe Hunter Lee

I hope your new baby enjoys her Barley and Birch when she gets here!

Thanks again to Barley and Birch for hosting my first giveaway!

You are wonderful!

You make me feel.

My Handsome Husband, is my life. The 4th of July post roused up something in me that I had forgotten about and I am ready to feel it again.

 He is amazing.

He is my hero.

He is the one that runs into the fires while everyone else run out.

He grabs the chainsaw and sits on top of the burning building venting a hole, all the while knowing that at any moment the roof could cave in.

 Every third day he goes to work for 24 hours and then comes home, and I am always so happy to see him, even if I am frustrated because the baby didn't sleep and I am so tired.

I know I should be more patient with him because I don't know what happened that night at work unless he pages. He sleeps with the radio on all night and barely gets any sleep. Then he comes home the next day and gets to work mowing the lawn, taking out the trash, or even off to another job!

I take him for granted sometimes and I could kick myself.

He crawls into bed late that night, worn out after another hard day. Kisses me, tells me he loves,

and then he starts to snore!

So I punch him in the arm, make him roll over, I hold him, I kiss his bare shoulder and whisper in his ear all the things I didn't get to say that day...

"Tommy, thank you. Thank you for working so hard to make the money that pays our bills. For fixing our leaking roof. For buying our food. For playing with our son.

Thank you for putting up with my nagging when I am frustrated with you. Then loving me when I say I am sorry."

You take care of me when I am sick.

You are so spontaneous!

You make me laugh so hard sometimes I can't breathe.

And yet you love me so much sometimes, you take my breath away.

You are my Handsome Husband.

You are my Sexy Fireman.

You are my Hero.

My one true love.

You are my Always and Forever.

I am everything and nothing without you.

Thank you.

You are one of the best things that makes me feel good about being a woman and I don't know how I will ever repay you.

Love you that much...

An Independance Day Anniversary!

How are we to ever know that it is this, or that day that will forever change our lives?

I can tell you what day it was that now, looking back, that changed mine forever.

It was July 4th, 2007.

It was so incredibly humid that night. What am I saying? Every summer night in Texas is humid!

My boss Sheryl, quickly became my friend so I was invited to her family's 4th of July get together. She told me Tommy might show up, that he always does because being the Fire Marshal he has to keep everyone "in line". Her dad owns a fireworks stand.

The whole night I was there, eating homemade ice cream, bouncing my leg up and down, just waiting for him to show up.

 Then he did.

 I had spoken to him on the phone, on numerous occasions, me being the dispatcher, him being the fireman.

It was just this time, I was so nervous. So, something I can't even explain.

He got out of his pick-up and walked over to everyone and said hello. The entire time I had butterflies in my stomach and my heart was doing flip flops!

Every time he walked by me, I would catch a whiff of him, and it started the process all over again.
I honestly can't tell you most of the stuff we even talked about that night.

I do know he was trying to act like Joe cool with his new cell phone showing off his funny ring tones.

I laughed nervously and I am sure I was beet red, thank goodness for the heat! 

We didn't even exchange numbers that night.

I had to leave early so I could get ready for work by midnight.

Who knew that, that meeting would be the reason for him to call me a few weeks later to go out?

To fall in love.

To get married.

To have a baby.

I never expected that gorgeous fireman with the wrangler butt to actually love me! 

Now every 4th of July, we thank Sheryl for introducing us while we watch the fireworks and eat her mom's amazing homemade ice cream.

Never take for granted a passing glance that makes your heart flutter, it might just be greater powers at work giving you a hint to get after it!!!!

We sure did!

How sweet it is to be loved by you... 

 

Oh and you my little firecracker!

Such a silly little boy!

He had such a great time watching the fire works that the guys were setting off!

I sadly had to go home early due to a migraine! It made me so sad! Tommy said he was just dancing around and having the time of his life!

I can't wait to see what next year brings!

Love you boys so much!

Happy 4th to all!